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Sienz.. I think to myself now.. Why did i choose what I do today.. There has been a whole reason behind it.. When i decided that I want to take up civil engineering as a degree.. All i thought was..oh..thats cool..its interesting, here’s a subject that might interest me that I can do, and also provide me good income. Job prospects of an engineer is good because of their ability to solve problems. However, recently, i’ve been thinking. Why did i go for this job if its not something i trully enjoy? Because not alot of people have their freedom to choose what they want to do when they grow older. It maybe due to the money factor and also the responsibility factor..my parents said to me once, choose what you like to do.. Not a lot of people has such flexibility, so i count myself as one of the few lucky ones. Yet, being able to choose what i want to be, i didn’t seem to have the guts to choose my own future.
When i was young i wanted to be a car driver, a motoring journalist, a pilot, an architect, a musician, a music teacher, even a conductor. Then again, i didn’t really see how important studies were in school which will eventually determine which direction i would head in the future. Hence, my school results were so-so, my piano and violin grade were so-so too, none of them were marvelous. Its like getting a set of mahjong tiles which has like ‘rojak’ combinations in it which shows no sign of what combination you wanna pursue.
Perhaps thats why parents who are unable to fufill their dreams pass it on to their child, i can see why. I’m turning 21 in 8 months time, and am really asking myself, is this really what i want to do for the rest of my life? If office hours is 8 to 5 with 9 hours out of 16 hours of waking time. Do i want to spend 3/5 of my time of being an adult doing what i think as ‘oh! I won’t say this is my dream job or a job i love but i don’t mind doing it.’? I have a choice, i’ve made my choice, but have i made the right one?
